What happens when you don't blog for a few months but you have all these ides in your head?
You end up with a random vent and possible telling all of your business to folks you barely know on your blog.
Ill try not to tell too much but who knows.....
_ First I have to say I'm a little upset that my writings and partial posts have been lost due to my net book freezing on me. I was pissed at first but then I realized these are my thoughts and thru time I will remember bits and pieces and be able to put them back together.
_ My Favorite Necklace broke the other day. The crazy part is I did nothing to force it to break, the chain just popped as I was walking from my desk leaving work for the day. I still have the charm but who knows it could have been a sign. I say its a sign to leave the past and replace it with something new.
_ I hate reality checks and being told about myself but it has to be done in order for us to grow. Recently I was told my attitude stinks, especially when things don't go the way I want them to or think they should go. I will say being told this hurt me but its not the first time this has come up. I was told this before but the messenger was different. Being told something like this by someone you really care about is different from a random person from your past.
_ My move date keeps getting pushed back, I'm ok with it since it allows me to pay down my debt but part of me feels like I'm stuck and have lost my Independence. It would be great if my Christmas gift to myself would be a move out date.
_since were on the topic of gifts, My Birthday is coming up very soon and I would love to get a special gift from a certain person, but my attitude may have prevented me from getting that.
BTW: I have no idea what I'm doing for my birthday yet. Party, Trip, Club, small gathering with friends are on the list.
_ actively dating again, so I'm going to try out this speed dating thing. I doubt it turns out into anything but at least it will be fun and something to blog about. Might even go back on an on line site. the problem is not having people to go out with its going out with people who want what I want and who i find attractive. you can have the sweetest person but no spark of attraction. you can have the man of your dreams but he doesn't want a relationship so your stuck between waiting or going out and getting it. As I have always said " Timing Is Everything"
Thanks for allowing me to share, remember This Is My Therapy.
